Sunday, November 12, 2006



There. I had to get that out. Don't you ever just have a blah moment? I do. But now I am good.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Cake ...

So, today as I was walking I thought about the phrase 'you can't have your cake and eat it to'. That doesn't make sense to me at all really. I mean, who would want to have a cake and not eat it? Why else would you even want to have cake, if not to eat it? I just don't understand. That is kind of a stupid phrase personally.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Likes and Dislikes

So the other day I was walking on campus and I saw this girl wearing a skirt with leggings underneath, and I thought about how much I hate that. I also hate pointy-toed high heels and not getting any mail ever. I hate being too hot or too cold and I hate it when my favourite song on a CD is the only one that skips. I hate hurting other people's feelings, even unintentionally. I hate it when people don't use their turn signals. I hate it when people I have known for years still can't spell/pronounce my last name. I hate buying pants that already have holes in them.

However, I do love vacuuming and the feel of the sun on my face and when they light up the Y on the side of the mountain during homecoming and graduation. I love the fog machine and being able to say hi to people on campus that I know. I love compliments and chocolate chip cookies. I love watching movies and seeing other people happy because of something I have done. I love throwing a good party, or even just going to a good party. I love meeting new people and having new experiences.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Random things

I have a few things that I have been thinking about lately. One is that I recently watched the entire series of 'Prison Break' on DVD. I didn't think I would like it, and it wasn't until I watched the first episode that I was hooked. I really like the moral issues it brings up, and also I like that it shows that no matter where you are in life you can meet good people - even in jail. Not that I am planning on going to jail, but there are still some good people there. There are bad ones too, you just have to know how to idnetify which are which. But how can you do that? It is almost impossible to tell from one meeting (or even several if the person is really clever) what a person is really like. If they want you to think they are a certain way, you will most likely gain that opinion of them no matter what.

That leads me to my second thought of the day (I know, two thoughts in one day is pushing it, but they sorta link together). Some friends and I are setting up a group date for Friday, and none of us are dating anyone right now so we all set each other up. It is definitely a large group date (there will be about 12 people there, maybe more) so it should be tons of fun. The thing is that having lived in my culture as long as I have (I am a Mormon and I go to BYU) I know what guys are looking for. I could easily pretend to be the perfect little Susie-homemaker who loves to cook and have kids and wants to be a stay at home mom etc etc. It isn't that I don't want those things, but I am not as sweet as sugar like some girls are and I don't really want to be. So I would never pretend to be 'that girl' even though I easily could. The thing is, knowing I could do so so easily, means that obviously he could do so quite easily as well. So how do I know that he is being genuine? Especially because only one other person who is going to be there knows him and I am sure this other person will be distracted with his own date, so he really could be whoever he wants to be.

It is like that Savage Garden song about how when you are on the telephone with someone you can be whoever you want to be. That can happen in real life too, not just on the phone. You are a little more constricted in real life because you can't say you are Madonna or something, but you can pretend to be anyone (like Dharma always did in 'Dharma and Greg'). So, I know I am being genuine (it takes too much energy to lie) but how do I know that everyone else is. Especially becuase I think sometimes people are being unintentionally dishonest. But does that make it okay? Or if your intentions are good (like so you don't hurt someones feelings) is it okay to lie? It is so hard to think you know someone and then find out you were totally wrong the whole time. It is hard enough because I think when we meet someone we put people into categories and so we fit people into these neat little categories, so we have ourselves to try to overcome, we don't need more misconceptions forced on us on top of that.

Well, I know this was a random post and I am not sure how much sense it makes to anyone reading it, but I had a few thoughts so I thought 'hey why not post them?'. I hope you made some sense of what I wrote.

Sunday, October 15, 2006


So, I watched a movie last night on our in-apartment projector, and then I did what I always do, which is check out the special features. They of course had bloopers and deleted scenes and also commentaries. But this one had like 4 commentaries, one by the director alone, one by the director and producer, one by the director and some of the actors ... you get it. Anyway, I thought about this and I realized, I never actually ever watch the commentaries. And not only that, I don't know anyone who actually ever does. So why in the world do they insist on making 4 different ones for one movie?

Friday, October 06, 2006

I totally forgot this exsisted ...

So, I totally forgot that this blog existed until I was looking a friend's blog on the same website and thought - hey that looks familiar. So I searched for myself and 'surprise!' I had a blog on here. I am so dumb. Anyway, I will try not to forget this time and maybe, just maybe, something good will happen, like I will post thoughts and feelings and actual stuff. Wish me luck!