Thursday, May 17, 2007
Lost and Confused
So, I am a little lost and confused right now (hence the title). Not in the literal sense, since if I was lost literally why would I be writing in my blog, but in the more abstract sense. I am lost in my life. I am not sure what I want to do with my future, which consequently makes making decisions very difficult. For one, I have been offered a job doing research in Oregon, but I am not sure I want to take it. There are a few reasons I am not sure about this: 1) I don't think I want to do research for the rest of my life; 2) I have heard from several of the current employees that the work environment is not always ideal (to put is kindly). But if I am not going to do that, then what the heck I am going to do?? That is where the lost thing comes in. Should I take the job until I decide, or should I try to find something else that is closer to home? The thing is that I think I want to maybe go to PA shool and so I would need some patient experience, but I am having a hard time finding a job that I actually want where I could get that. I mean, I could probably work in a long term care facility, but the problem with that is that the nearest one I would have to stay at home to work at (okay, I wouldn't have to, but I wouldn't want to get an apartment in Vulcan). But if I stayed home and did that it would be good for the pocketbook (to use an old term) but it would be crappy for my social life. I wouldn't meet anyone who I think would be worth meeting (no offense to anyone in this area, but I want to meet a good mormon boy and that is hard in this area). I just don't know what to do. And I hate having to make a decision. I HATE IT!! Any thoughts or suggestions would be great!